next generation rap

So many nights I've shed my tears,

So many times wishing to die,

It seemed like no one cared,

I have been so scared,

every day a struglle for me,

Long hopeless prayers asking for help; but no one came,

I use to believe but how can he be true?

All the years I've had nothing but pain,

Long hopeless night of flashbacks;but for what?

To make me a better person?

To make my future?

No I don't think so,

If there truly was a god then I wouldn't of been hurt,

i wouldn't of had ruined my body from a blade,

I wouldn't of felt nthing but hate,

people say everything happens for a reason,

well if that's so; what is my reason?

Why am I always getting hurt,

Why was my childhood ruined,

Why did he let me ruin my body,

I wish I would have thrown the blade away,

I wish I would have run,

I wish i wouldn't of let my walls down; but I did and where was he?

no where to be found of course,

if there truly is a "God" prove yourself to me,